Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love.
I hate love.
And being an extremely caring and sharing person, he also mailed it to a few people.
In normal circumstances (and in a normal place), this would have been the end of it. But the stress (WTF?!) of examinations makes people extraordinarily expressive. This is the reply that we all got from He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named (HWMNBN)* some time later –
I have been in love, Amazing it is. It makes you immune to all the atrocities of Life. It locks your chest, captures your heart and it means someone is there inside, always with you and for you.
You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you and then one feeling, totally out of this world, wanders into your life…and exposes the vulnerability of your hollow empire. You give yourself into it, though they didn’t ask for it. Everything about them starts touching you, and then you start admiring life coz it wasn’t ever complete before this.
Love takes over; it gets the best out of you. It lights your heart and soul to remove all the darkness of life, so simple a phrase like ‘Life is Beautiful’ turns into an ecstatic feeling working its way right into your heart. It is not just in the imagination, neither just in the face and mind, it’s right into your soul, a lifetime real two parts of the same heart-made for each other feeling which is your biggest strength on this planet. Nothing can ever do that…And that my friend is what is LOVE.
I worship love.
Evidently, our dear HWMNBN* could not take so direct an attack on something that he has invested so much time and energy into. 😀
* – Writer’s name withheld due to security reasons 😉